"Expressing Life" © 2012  ~    acrylic painting by Carol E. Fairbanks

                                                       

 Leaping Like a Lunatic

Ever feel like your hair is standing on end?  It does feels crazy, but it could actually be a good thing. It might mean that some major growth is happening.... some quantum leap in consciousness is taking place that will bring incredible blessings. ( I'm counting on that!!)  But is this the time to take that "great leap of faith" into the unknown?  Artist, Jan Evershed says on her calendar, "Yes!"

It's yours - take it!

Leap like a lunatic

Over the chasm below

Erupting as you go

Your true self awaits you

And you will know.

Well, I can easily "leap like a lunatic",  as that seems to be the way I am feeling lately! And the "erupting" part is a "piece of cake"!!  But trusting that my "true self awaits" me - that feels like a time I might want to reel in a little more "wild woman". 

I have read somewhere that "you can't take small steps in crossing a chasm".  So, in other words, this "great leap" can only be done in a "wild woman" way!  There can be no indecisiveness, no ambivalence, and definitely no being wishy-washy.  I guess the key word here is "TRUST".  But in what? 

 In taking that great leap to express your life mission, you have to be daring and trust something beyond your fear.... way beyond your small self that perceives danger around every corner... that is sure it won't work out...that retreats when life becomes a giant mountain to be scaled.  Maybe the plan right now is to explore and build confidence in something to trust in.  Certainly trusting in people, being human and students of life like me, is risky and often requires forgiveness. And the stuff I accumulate falls short of giving me lasting confidence.  Can I trust something that my five senses can't perceive or that can't be listed on my resume? 

 The answer is that I must, if I am going to ever be able to take that quantum leap. As the quote goes in the movie, "Shawshank Redemtion",  The way I see it is this...I need to either get busy living or get busy dying." If you don't trust anything, survival is challenging and thriving is probably nearly impossible. Maybe the "great leap of faith" is to make the decision to live and live fully. As a dedicated wild woman, I can definitely trust in that!