"Woman Ascending" © 2004 ~ colored pencil by Carol E. Fairbanks |
Giving Voice to my Dream
"Woman must not accept; she must challenge. She must not be awed by that which is been built up around her; she must reverence that woman in her which struggles for expression."
Margaret Sanger
From feeling like a headless mannequin, adorned with store bought decorations, to soaring with the knowledge of the "pearl" of who she truly is, a woman moves unpredictably through the experiences of her life. With finally knowing of her true self and accepting its value, a woman, at last, has the courage to give word and form to her true essence. Before that moment of unconditional acceptance, her life is a struggle between gender-inspired obligations and manipulative compliments. She is constantly looking to one form of authority or another to define, evaluate and recommend her life choices.
Yet woman steadily ascends on the flow of her life events, as she moves through the facade of society's expectations and suggested gender roles. She sorts out what is someone else's truth from her own, sometimes with great frustration and anger, and then begins to form a new definition of herself.... one that is based on who she really is and not some contrived stereotype of who she should be. Woman ultimately offers the pearl of her true self to a world very much in need of her gift. Every time a woman makes this ascent of self in her heroine's journey, the world is a little more loving, a little more at peace with itself.
For the planet to move toward wholeness, a woman must, with reverence and courage, begin to at last express her truth. It doesn't matter if the form is word, paint or stone... it's only important that the essence of her creation reflect the spirit of her true self. So, moving from mannequin to woman in flight, I am writing this blog, while honoring the "woman" in me that struggles for expression. I am painting and drawing the images that give form and color to my words, while healing my heart with love and acceptance. It is only in honoring this self actualizing ascent that I can know the fullest joy of being alive as a woman....a woman in awe of herself!